So. Jack's not gay. I mean, I kind of knew that? He has been married before and he has a daughter and a grandson. But still. That was a relatively long time ago and I know his heart has belonged to Ianto for a long time ( Read more... )

Gwen came around today. She saw Esther and I kissing and she tried to read me the riot act. Her, of all people. You would think she'd be happy for me. She knows how much Ianto's death affected me. Hell, I stayed away for thousands of years. Although I don't know if she realizes just how long I was gone. It was just a year or so for her. Still, she ( Read more... )

Jack and I kissed today. Well, I kissed him. But he did kiss me back. Then things got awkward. He got really quiet and looked at me in this strange way that I couldn't really place. I felt bad and started rattling on about something stupid.

Still. We kissed. I don't know what that means for me. For us. Have I just ruined a friendship?

Jack's taking such good care of me. It's almost domestic. He's baking banana bread, making coffee. I really have to remember that he's kinda my boss and is only taking care of me like I did for him after he was shot. But his smile is so big and endearing and he put his hand over mine the other day, I feel like maybe it's more? Do I just want that ( Read more... )

I broke the news to Esther today about the choice she had to make: being a part of Torchwood and leaving her family behind or going back to her family and forgetting everything she knows about us. I thought she'd choose to go back. She's witnessed so much and she saw how horribly Vera died. I've told her about Tosh and Owen and Ianto, why would she ( Read more... )

So I'm dead ( Read more... )

Jack arrived today. He said Gwen and Rex would be by in a few days to visit. He gave me such a big hug when he saw me. Big and yet so gentle, like he thought I would break. I think he was even on the verge of tears. I don't know why. I'm just so inconsequential in the big scheme of things. But he said something about having lost too many people ( Read more... )

I don't think there's a part of me that doesn't hurt. I just...ache all over, everywhere. And the places where the bullet tore through me are just this icy-hot searing pain. Is this what it felt like for Jack every time he came back to life? I think I'd go crazy if this happened over and over again. I hope Archie gets in touch with Jack soon. He's ( Read more... )

Character name: Ianto Jones ( Read more... )

Character name: Esther Drummond ( Read more... )